The only thing I hate worse than phone calls with people I don’t really know is waiting for a phone call from somebody that I don’t really know. Okay that’s not true. There are things I hate more. But I am a self centered human who is currently in the midst of waiting for a phone call from somebody that I don’t really know and I don’t like it. The call is from the company I interviewed for an internship with this summer. I applied a while ago and didn’t hear back for a while. During the “didn’t hear back” phase my friend invited me to go to Europe with him for a month this summer. “I don’t have anything else better to do” I thought, and quickly accepted his offer. Literally two days after we booked the tickets, I heard back from the company I applied to asking for a phone interview. As you know, I hate phones so I said yes to the phone interview, knowing that I wouldn’t really be able to take the job if they offered it, because I wanted to practice interviewing, especially on the phone. Now it turns out I am a finalist for the internship and I need to tell them that I actually can’t take the position I interviewed for because “something has come up that will cause me to be out of town for a month this summer” (is how I wrote it down before I called). So I called this morning and of course got voicemail, and made the terrible mistake of saying “I will be available until two o’clock this afternoon” which means I have to be available until two o’clock this afternoon. So I am waiting, and writing.
There is a term often used in economics, and life, called opportunity cost. Which is essentially the idea that when making a decision, part of the cost is the value you will not receive when you forgo the next best alternative. By making the decision to go to Europe this summer, I am passing on the possible internship. The internship is my opportunity cost. In the short term I am making the right call. I would much rather spend a month in Europe than the summer working an internship. But long term it is quite possible that I am making a negative transaction. The value I could receive from the internship is probably greater than the value I will receive from my Europe trip. From talking with the company, it seems likely that if I excelled in the internship (which I am confident I would have) I could land a job with that company. Which would be awesome. But I already committed to my friend and the trip and so that is what I am doing. And really all this internship opportunity did was make me feel bad, like I was missing out. If the opportunity was never there then there would be nothing to miss out on. Now I am just complaining about going to Europe, wow. I am genuinely very excited to go to Europe. What a terrible problem to have right? Europe or a cool internship, I sound like a dick.
Well not I am going to go create a linkedin profile since I won’t have this internship to get me a job.
“This is real life everything we do is legendary, and we’re gonna do it till the day we in the cemetery”-Welcome To Forever, Logic